I'm So Tired

I'm tired. I'm tired of being let down.

I'm tired of being disappointed.

I'm tired of being horribly misled.

I'm tired of waiting for the other shoe to drop.

I'm tired of the other shoe always dropping.

I'm tired of allowing myself to become vulnerable.

I'm tired of being made to feel like it's safe to become vulnerable.

I'm tired of first dates.

I'm tired of deciding on first date outfits.

I'm tired of first kisses.

I'm tired of best behavior tricking me into believing it's long-lasting and real.

I'm tired of believing intense complements and deep proclamations.

I'm tired of wondering if I'll hear.

I'm tired of not being sure.

I'm tired of trusting the process.

I'm tired of the in-between stage, before it's official.

I'm tired of being made to feel like I'm too much.

I'm tired of being made to feel like I'm not enough.

I'm tired of being gaslit.

I'm tired of being made to feel crazy.

I'm tired of getting excited about anyone.

I'm tired of feeling fleeting happiness.

I'm tired of everyone around me having what I want.

I'm tired of wondering why I don't have it.

I'm tired of being where I am.

I'm tired of everything I ever have being so short-lived.

I'm tired of looking.

I'm tired of meeting.

I'm tired of searching.

I'm tired of hoping, wishing.

I'm tired of being put on a pedestal and swiftly knocked down by the same one who put me there.

I'm tired of feeling bitter.

I'm tired of feeling sad.

I'm tired of feeling safe enough to open up.

I'm tired of thinking something's wrong with me.

I'm tired of letting myself believe it's me.

I'm tired of doubting myself.

I'm tired of wondering if it's just never gonna happen for me.

I'm tired of crying.

I'm tired of trying to laugh when all I want to do is sob.

I'm tired of pretending I'm not affected by letdowns.

I'm tired of pretending I'll be fine if I end up on my own.

I'm tired of acting strong.

I'm tired of not having a partner-in-crime.

I'm tired of feeling so close to what I want, but it being further away than I thought.

I'm tired of my friends feeling bad for me.

I'm tired of having so much to give.

I'm tired of dating apps.

I'm tired of swiping.

I'm tired of sleazily sexts before a first date.

I'm tired of calling bullshit.

I'm tired of resolving that they're all probably terrible anyway.

I'm tired of wanting to give up my whole heart, but the right person not being around to claim it.

I'm tired of hiding my upset with jokes and brush-offs.

I'm tired of being willing to take the bad with the good but not having it reciprocated.

I'm tired of having to exchange things you left at each other's places.

I'm tired of having to regret ever posting anything about them.

I'm tired of having to explain what happened.

I'm tired of needing time to lick my wounds.

I'm tired of having to build myself back up.

I'm tired of starting from square one.

I'm tired of it all.

I'm so tired.